GOOD DAY EVERYONE! YES, TIME HAS PASSED SO MUCH AND TIME NEVER STOPS BUT WILDA HAD TO TAKE TIME TO STOP, EVALUATE, AND MAKE DECISIONS TO BETTER HER LIFE AND HER CHILDREN! AS A MOTHER OF THREE BEAUTIFUL BLESSINGS, I AM THANKFUL AND ENCOURAGED EACH DAY TOO KNOW THAT I WAS ABLE TO HAVE CHILDREN. HOWEVER, MY CHILDREN HAVE NOTICED AND WITNESS HOW UGLY LUPUS AND FIBROMYALGIA HAS BEEN ON MY PHYSICAL AND MENTAL WELL-BEING. I HAD TO OPEN MY EYES AND SPEAK WITH MY CHILDREN BECAUSE I FELT LIKE THEY FELT NEGLECTED BECAUSE IT IS HARD TO PLAN TO ATTEND EVENTS BECAUSE I NEVER KNOW HOW I WILL FEEL! IT IS BITTERSWEET, FOR ME, TO KNOW THAT MY CHILDREN ALWAYS ASKS IF I AM OKAY TO GO TO THE PARK, A PARTY, THE ZOO, BOWLING, OR WHATEVER THEY HAVE IN MIND! I USE TO GET SO ANGRY AND CRY BECAUSE I COULD NOT BRING MY CHILDREN CERTAIN PLACES BECAUSE OF CONDITION BUT COMMUNICATING HAS HELPED US UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER AND GROW AS A FAMILY! EVERY DAY IS NOT ALWAYS EASY BUT MY CHILDREN HAVE THEIR OWN MIND, THEIR INDEPENDENCE, AND I LOVE SEEING THEM MANAGE SCHOOL, HOMEWORK, CHORES, AND OF COURSE, THE SILLY- PICKING ON EACH OTHER MOMENTS! MOSTLY, I LOVE HOW MUCH THEY ENJOY LIFE AND HOW MUCH GOOD I SEE IN THEM! I LOVE MY THREE LITTLE LEADERS AND THEIR FATHER AND I COULD NOT BETTER ANY MORE THANKFUL AND BLESSED! I HAVE A FAMILY, DESPITE THIS LUPUS, AND WE ARE GROWING AMAZINGLY, DESPITE THE CHALLENGES WE HAVE FACED BUT WE FACE IT TOGETHER ! SPEAK TOO OUR YOUTH! I KNOW HOW CHALLENGING THIS CONDITION IS AND EVERYONE HAS THEIR OWN WAY, BUT KNOW THAT FAMILY IS FAMILY AND I TRULY APPRECIATE AND RESPECT MINES! GOD BLESS EVERYONE! HALLOWEEN IS APPROACHING AND I PLAN TO BE OUT AND ABOUT WITH MY CHILDREN!
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Hello my Supporters, Readers, and Friends! Like I have always said, "Lupus can do so much to your Life, and take away so much time." There has been so much going on in my life, to the Point that I really thought that I was going to go Insane! Well, I do have my moments on which I will Scream, Cry and Shout to get whatever I need to get out! I have been frustrated because I have been dealing with Doctors, Rheumatologist especially, who have diagnosed me with two different illnesses! I HATE WHEN A DOCTOR GIVES ME ONLY 3 MINUTES IN A ROOM, I HATE WHEN I FEEL THAT I AM NOT BEING LISTENED TOO, I HATE WHEN THERE IS NO ABSOLUTE ANSWER, AND I HATE BEING ASKED FOR BLOOD WORK WHEN I AM NOT SPECIFICALLY TOLD WHAT IT IS FOR! ALSO, I HATE WHEN A DOCTOR KNOWS THAT I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN AND I AM IGNORED ABOUT HELP! HOWEVER , THAT IS OKAY BECAUSE I KNOW THE LAWS, I KNOW MY RIGHTS, AND I LOVE THE FACT THAT WE HAVE YOU TUBE, SOCIAL NETWORKS, AND OTHER PLACES TO CONSIDER,WHEN IT INVOLVES GIVING ME THE RIGHT TREATMENT!! I REFUSE TO TAKE MEDICINE THAT WILL NOT WORK AND I REFUSE TO PLACE MY LIFE IN THE HANDS OF SOMEONE WHO IS SO SMART THAT HE OR SHE IS TO DUMB TO UNDERSTAND THE SEVERITY OF WILDA'S LIFE!! MY CHILDREN NEED ME JUST AS MUCH AS I NEED THEM SO, ON TO NEW DOCTORS! LUPUS is a puzzle and it's crazy how a doctor can see you to help you ,are just see you too help them!! I love putting names out there as well but I will do that when I am on TV!! I may have my health issues but if I do not stand for myself , than what’s the point! DO not be afraid to ask questions, or speak your mind! Not everyone cares or even Understands but do what you need to do to get better! I know that I can not respect a doctor who speaks loudly about what I need and my health issues when I am in my room! I could have been told that too my face but its obvious that no one wants to say anything, especially with her being the Head Boss of everyone! WELL, WILDA IS THE BOSS OF HER LIFE AND I HAVE OFFICIALLY FIRED TWO OF MY SO-CALLED AWESOME DOCTORS!!!
This whole year has been challenging! I have gained new friends, lost a few friends, and more importantly, Almost lost my life!! I had to deal with a Specialist ( NO name needed), who decided that I needed to be taken off certain medicine because the pain is in my head, I do not look sick, and I do not have Sytstemic LUPUS!! Very Funny Doctor!! Well, being off my prednisone cause issues with my Lungs,legs, feet and knees! I will get into more detail later but right now I WANT YOU ALL TOO UNDERSTAND; NOT EVERY DOCTOR IS ABOUT YOUR HEALTH!! PAY ATTENTION TOO YOUR BODY, LISTEN, AND TRUST YOUR INSTINCT!! I AM THANKFUL THAT I WENT TO THE ER WHEN I DID! MORE THANKFUL FOR THE MAN IN MY LIFE WHO SEES WHAT I DO NOT SEE AND PUSHES ME Because I CAN BE STUBBORN! MY Health is important! We are so thankful for our Amazing children that we see every Second! I appreciate LIFE AND I PLAN TO MOVE FORWARD, EVEN If that means that some people (such as doctors, fake friends, etc), have to be left behind!! I am only human , just like everyone else, and I do believe that all good comes to those who wait! As far FOR those that decided that things would never come into light, I have to Laugh because that type of mind is only for the Ignorant- I guess this next book I am working on will shine so much LIGHT ON THINGS~~ BE UNIQUE! MOVE FORWARD!! Everyone has a Story and I am thankful for the multiple characters that I get to Speak about through my writings!!
Hello too all of my fellow Supporters and Friends!! First and Foremost, Happy Holidays too you and your Family and Friends all over! I am a Louisiana-Southern-GIRL, so this weather has had me going in different directions, not to mention dealing with Physicians who do not see me as someone who is SICK! I may not LOOK SIck but Lupus is such a Battle and having Fibromyalgia does not make it any better! I will be bloging as much as I can but as of now, I have been focusing on my Health, both Mentally and Physically! HAVE A BLESSED DAY TOO ALL!! LIVE, LAUGH, LOVE, DANCE, and SING!!
I never asked to Have Lupus and I surely didnt ask for Fibromyalgia! However, I find it impossible , at times, to believe that I can have a normal life with the job of my dreams and awwwwe because my life is just not normal! I am Simple but I am not meant to do simple things! Anyone living with a Chronic Condition knows that our lives come as it comes but we should not feel disadvantage because of our conditions! We are different and I am proud of the Person I am and whats more to come! Everyday is not a walk in the park and I do not expect that but I still love to dream it! My dreams are to 💃 and choreograph and write as much stories, poetry, and lyrics as possible! I write from my heart and it does not get any better than that! Real Beauty is within! I want to change as much as I can change of my disabilities and the disadvantages one might assume! To know Wilda is too know Love, Joy, and Laughter! I will keep my passions close to my ❤ because I know that a change is coming! I only want to Impact and Inspire! Be Blessed and Thanks for all the Support, Love, and Prayers! #LupuswillnotBreakMe! Wilda will Bring it!
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Since April 2015, I have been dealing with constant pain because of this new condition called, "Trying to have a Life with Fibromyalgia and Lupus! Lord knows that I am never one to stop but on November 12, 2015 I was ready to let go and give up on my Dreams, my Ambitions, and my Passions!! I could not be a Mother to my Family, A Sister to my Siblings, a Friend to a Friend, and a Love to my World! My days were just off and on and with Lupus you just never know! As much events as I was asked to attend or Perform (Sing or Speak), I declined on each one because I just could not get any better! I have been in Pain since the Age of three but I just figured that this was something that would not last long! I was wrong but now I can say that everything is falling into place and I thank God for this BURDEN because my BLESSINGS ARE SO MUCH BIGGER! It was so hard to hold on to anything Life had given me because I always worried about , rather I would be able to Walk this day, Speak this day, or will I have enough energy to get UP! Depression has always been a battle for me and I almost succumbed to its Sorry ASS!! Those that see the Fight in me, I thank you for staying by my side and listening to me when I felt alone in the Dark! I was crying in bed almost every night! I became so use too crying that I would isolate myself in my bedroom!! I Felt safe and not bothered! I could barely speak or Help anyone, let alone myself!! I am grateful to know that I had someone to hold me as I cried~I am thankful to have someone hear me when I would Scream and say Unholy things-I am thankful to know that I WAS NOT ALONE! I AM THANKFUL, THANKFUL, THANKFUL! Lupus and Fibromyagia will always be a Part of my Life but It will not allow you to Become my Life! You have brought me through a Battle but Like a Soldier, I have won the War and I plan to win the {Many} Wars to come!! Depression, You will always lose because I will always find a way to Write you away! We all are battling something in Life!! I need you to know that you are only as Alone as you want too be!! DO NOT BE AFRAID OF WHAT YOU CAN'T CONTROL NOR UNDERSTAND! FIGHT IT, BEAT IT, OVERCOME IT, AND BE A SOLDIER OF (YOUR) LIFE!! I WILL MAKE MY DREAMS COME TRUE! I APPRECIATE THE SUPPORT AND LOVE!! I ONLY HOPE TO IMPACT AND MAKE A CHANGE; GOD BLESS!!!
Dear Lupus and Fibromyalgia, I will never forgive you for being such a burden in my life and I will always hate you and I will continue to defeat your ass as much as I can!! However, you have allowed me to see the world and people in a different aspect and My heart is just to big too allow you to control me so, Thank you for that! I am not Bitter, but my anger towards you is insane! As Horrible as you are, I am always finding ways to prove too you that I am a Survivor! I will
#WriteaboutLupus, #SingaboutLupus, #DanceaboutLupus, and #SpeakaboutLupus, and #Fibromyalgia too allow others too know that they,too, are not alone! We must Fight the Fight! #ChronicPainSucks, but the Willingness too Survive is worth the Battle, based on my opinion and my experiences! I have too be strong, Mentally, because every second of this pain is not a joke! Talk about it and Be About it! Have a Productive week everyone! Thanks for the support and Prayers! Butterfly Hugs and kisses to each of you!! Since the age of THREE, I remember dealing with so much joint pain! My Legs, Feet, Knees, and my Hands would hurt constantly! However, I was blessed with an Amazing Grandmother and Mother who paid attention to my Voice and I was never ignored about it! In Addition to that, my Family and Friends have never treated me any different because of my Battle with Lupus! I AM GRATEFUL FOR THE SUPPORT I HAVE RECEIVED OVER THE YEARS FROM MY FAMILY! However, Life with Lupus has always been about me because Lupus is the Reason I am a Fighter, I am Kind, and I am Appreciative about Life and the Blessings I have! I find it so Funny when PEOPLE, think that Everything is surrounding solely on me because I am Sick! If you do not have Lupus, or any type of CHRONIC Conditions to understand the Pain I go through, than I suggest that the hole in your mouth stay quiet! I love speaking about Lupus and Fibromyalgia because its my burden and I think its important for me to stay motivated no matter how impossible my days may seem! I go to bed afraid that I may not wake up but I am thankful to have seen the day and I am thankful when I get up and see the next day! How can someone question me as a person, when they are the biggest hypocrites themselves! In my Family, IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN about Wilda because Wilda is Admiration just as much as Wilda is Motivated because of her Atmosphere! I am a Mother first and Foremost and being a Mother with Chronic Conditions has only added Fuel to the Fire that burns within me because I will not stop until Heaven is Ready for me! My health was taken away from me at such a young age, but I will not allow it to Define me as a Person! However, I have noticed that some people are not as accepting to any illness because Life just isn't fair! I am not bitter and I have dealt with people who have said stupid things because I do not look like I am Sick or in Pain! To you I say, Kiss my SICK ASS AND STAY SWALLOWED IN YOUR BITTERNESS! WILDA WILL CONTINUE, WILDA WILL STRIVE, WILDA IS ALL ABOUT WILDA, AND THAT IS THE REASON I HAVE SURVIVED! I love who I am as a person and I will continue being That I am! I HAVEN'T LOVED ME FOR SO LONG AND I REFUSE TOO ALLOW ANYONES STUPID REMARKS TO KNOCK ME DOWN! NO MATTER YOUR SITUATION, SMILE AT BITTER, NOT SO FRIENDLY PEOPLE, BECAUSE EVERYONE NEEDS A HUG SOMETIMES!! ESPECIALLY STUPIDITY!! HYPROCRITES NEED LOVE AS WELL BUT RESPECT IS SOLEY UP TOO YOU!!
Since the age of Three, I can remember having constant pain in my feet, hands, and fingers, as well as becoming so tired within a matter of minutes. Being diagnosed with Lupus (Sle) at the age of Seven was devastating but I was grateful to have a mom to Smile and tell me that everything would be alright, despite the obstacles I may encounter with Lupus! I am thankful too have Family and Friends who are beside me when I am dealing with the difficulties of my illnesses and I am appreciative of all the Love, Patience, and Time into making sure that I am getting better! I have been feeling bad since April (2015) and Sometimes I feel like its time for me to give up and let everything go but I know that there is an absolute reason for my Pain, Burdens, and struggle even when It is difficult for me to walk, stand, or eat because of it! In addition to that, sometimes I will stay in my bedroom all day and not come out unless I have too! I know it sounds selfish or that I am extremely depressed, but the only person that can understand how I am feeling is the person that is in a similar situation as well! I am so Angry that I am not able to stay consistent on things that I enjoy doing , such as Writing but I am grateful that my Children are able to do things for themselves as well as help me with whatever help I may need! My children keep a Smile on my face and I enjoy each and every second I have with them! Through all this Pain and So many tears, I can honestly say that I would not be who I am without my Family and Friends Motivation and Unconditional Love! I know that Wilda will Succeed and Wilda will Succeed because Wilda is Loved, Appreciated, and One of the Best Damn People living in this Beautiful World! Fibromyalgia Sucks, Lupus Sucks, and Depression Sucks but what doesn't Suck is the Amazing Support I have, although I battle with these Chronic Conditions! My Faith, Family, and Friends Keep me Going and Wilda's Goal is to Go Up and only come down to breath!! We all need a bit of fresh air right?!! Thanks again for all the support to my fellow readers, followers, and those that continue to pray for me as I get through this battle! I know that I am never alone!! Love you all and keep on pushing my Beautiful Butterflies!!
Being Sick (Forever) taught me one of the most important things in life:**Your Health should never be taken advantage of**! Love, Appreciate, Laugh, Dance, Sing, Write,and Enjoy LIFE!! You are Unique and there is only one You!! Stop Bitching about Dumb Shit!!!! Thought I should share from my Heart, yes my heart is a bit Angry right now, because some of us, Dealing with Invisible Illnesses, will never know what being Healthy truly feels like!! My life is much more than Lupus, so I say too Everyone; Be Blessed with Little to Nothing because you are Alive and Having Life is such a Wonderful thing, regardless of the Obstacles that come along! Those Obstacles are meant to Build, Repair, and Rebuild a Brand new or a Better YOU!!! JUST MY PERSONAL OPINION!!
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AuthorMy name is Wilda Riggs and I am so proud to have published a book about my Life and basically, my Journey, both good and bad with Lupus! I enjoy being a mother to my beautiful blessings and I love Writing,Singing, and Dancing as much as I am able too!! Stay Smiling People! Life is a Beautiful Thing!!!! Archives
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