Although 2012 has been a year of Trials and Tribulations for me, there has always been a year that I Think about each day
! That was the day I became a Mother! I miscarried in 2003 but God gave me the Strength to bring Aariyah into this World! When I became Pregnant with Aariyah Rose, A name Given by her God mother, my Best Friend, Angela, It was a bittersweet moment for me because I didn't know if my Child would have any birth defects or I would miscarry again! I craved Chocolate milk with Hot Cheetos! Distasteful, I know! However, I was attending the University Of Louisiana at Lafayette at the time, and my doctor visits became constant! I can recall being told that I was due on second of February for Aariyah but I had to have an Emergency C-Section on the twenty-third of December (2004) because I was spilling Protein and my Blood Pressure was very High! I was afraid of surgery because I had to be put to sleep but I was in the arms of an Angel who prayed with me through the process! I remember waking up and shouting, " How is my Baby"! The nurses told me that she was fine and Daddy was with her! Seeing our daughter for the first time, brought some much emotions through my mind! I Thank god for my Daughter and I was determined to make her proud of me! Aariyah is such a Sweet, Loving, and Giving child! She is Me and I am her! I was told that having a baby would be impossible and when I had lost all hope, God brought Life into my Life! She is my Beautiful Blessing and I love and appreciate my First Born so much! She is My Super-Girl and she is always beside me! It brings me to tears knowing that she knows when I am not feeling well and she wants to make sure that I am okay! I am nothing without my Beautiful Blessings! Happy Birthday My Precious Aariyah;) Live, Laugh, Love, and Dance- Cupid Shuffle because that is her favorite song! Even when I am hurting, she is able to make me get up and Dance with her! My Hero;) Cherish Life because it is Worth more then you know!
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I have learned that there will always be LIGHT, even through the Darkness! It is so insane how Life knocks you upside down so fast! Learn to Trust your Faith and Believe that great things are possible, even with our Trials and Tribulations! May God Bless you all and heal your hearts in these Precious Times! Cry if you must- a Smile will appear Soon! Butterfly Hugs and Kisses to each of you and Thank you for the Support! As I have said, " I may have Lupus and Fibromyalgia but I will not allow it to have me! I will fight until it is time for me to come home;) I can't remember the Year but I was in Lafayette General because I was dealing with a Lot of pain from Lupus! I remember seeing someone I rarely spoke to but she was assigned to watch over me and make sure I was comfortable! I won't say her name but I am glad to say that she is a good friend of mine and my mother! She did not look at me any different when she seen me in the hospital bed and that meant a lot too me! I truly appreciate the respect she gave me! I want people to remember me for Smiling, Laughing, Dancing, Singing, Clowning around, and the kind heart that I have! That will always keep me alive;) Butterfly Hugs and Kisses to you all;)
Each and Everyday I thank God for waking me up each morning to my beautiful family! I can remember, around my teenage years, how I never thought I would have children or fall in love! I was called ugly and fat since I was in first grade, so," Who could possibly love and accept me for me"? Its funny how the people that teased you years ago, or the ones dealing with so much negativity in their life! I realized that God has been preparing me to be Wise with my words, Strong when I am feeling down, and Understanding of Ignorance! Having Lupus, I have always dealt with Depression but Finding Love, Having a family, and Supportive people around me has placed my Life with a Smile on my face each day! When I think back of the pain and torment I endured, I realized that I am stronger and braver than most! If you do not have Faith and Love in your life, then how could one really enjoy happiness! What is Life without Love? My message to you is that, Life has a way of putting you down but in order to find a way to smile, you must learn to love yourself, unconditionally, and pray! No need to blame yourself for others actions but Forgive them and Forgive yourself because no one can actually move on without forgiveness! Smile even though the world may never smile back and DANCE tune to your own Beat ; I dance with my Eyes Closed because I could care how anyone feels- I am Free! Live, Laugh, Love, and Dance;) I may have Lupus but Lupus Does not Have Me!!
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AuthorMy name is Wilda Riggs and I am so proud to have published a book about my Life and basically, my Journey, both good and bad with Lupus! I enjoy being a mother to my beautiful blessings and I love Writing,Singing, and Dancing as much as I am able too!! Stay Smiling People! Life is a Beautiful Thing!!!! Archives
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