I remember how angry and frustrated I would feel when I would look at the Media and see how someone is able to take drugs for recreational reasons instead of Health Issues! I could never understand how someone, so healthy, is able to abuse their body every day. As I became older and wiser, I now feel a sadness for that person because I know he or she may be experiencing a hole that cannot be filled and it seems as if taking drugs is their ability of escaping (mentally) or filling that void in their life. I hate the fact that I have to worry about taking my medicine, when I should be able to just get up, make sure my children are ready for school, fixing breakfast, paying bills, or just finishing things that I need to finish! I have to have an alarm set up to wake up, before my children, and make sure that I am able to move because I have to do my motherly duties! How I wish I could get out bed with no pain and make it to the bathroom to wash my face or brush my teeth with no problem, but I can’t because the pain will prevent my ability to move , so I must take my medicine ahead of time! Basically, I know my medicine is to help me survive, rather than enjoy a HIGH!! I pray that those who abuse their bodies have the Love, Support, Faith, and Strength they need survive this deadly habit! My heart is with you and now I am able to understand that even though I may think I have it worse, there is always someone that may have it worse! Have a Blessed day everyone and enjoy the weekend! Remember that I may Have Lupus, but Lupus does not have me;)
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This year I have decided that I am going to do things I never thought I would be capable of doing because of my invisible Illness- Lupus, Fibromyalgia, Migraines, Arthritis, Chest Pains, and Chronic Fatigue! I am always changing for the better but I have realized that my heart is so Pure and Loving, that I have to be careful on who I share it with! I plan on Singing my heart out, Dancing much more in public,and never being afraid to say what I need to say! I encourage my children to Speak Freely but be Respectful! Without Respect, you have nothing! I feel it in my heart that the World will Love and Respect me for me! I am ready to Impact others and be that person that allows others to feel empowered! 2012 has been very Painful and even though I will have pain in this upcoming year, I will not allow it to take the special talents God has given me! Get Ready to Meet Wilda Riggs Everyone! If you see me, Never be afraid to approach me! I only Smile Too much! Live, Laugh, Love, and Dance People! Life is about having Fun,Faith, and A Future to hold up too;) We are all human and we all make mistakes! However, I believe that being humble and Appreciative of others is the best way to show how you have changed! Butterfly Hugs and Kisses to you all;) I may have Lupus but Lupus does not Have Me!!!
I can't remember the Year but I was in Lafayette General because I was dealing with a Lot of pain from Lupus! I remember seeing someone I rarely spoke to but she was assigned to watch over me and make sure I was comfortable! I won't say her name but I am glad to say that she is a good friend of mine and my mother! She did not look at me any different when she seen me in the hospital bed and that meant a lot too me! I truly appreciate the respect she gave me! I want people to remember me for Smiling, Laughing, Dancing, Singing, Clowning around, and the kind heart that I have! That will always keep me alive;) Butterfly Hugs and Kisses to you all;)
Each and Everyday I thank God for waking me up each morning to my beautiful family! I can remember, around my teenage years, how I never thought I would have children or fall in love! I was called ugly and fat since I was in first grade, so," Who could possibly love and accept me for me"? Its funny how the people that teased you years ago, or the ones dealing with so much negativity in their life! I realized that God has been preparing me to be Wise with my words, Strong when I am feeling down, and Understanding of Ignorance! Having Lupus, I have always dealt with Depression but Finding Love, Having a family, and Supportive people around me has placed my Life with a Smile on my face each day! When I think back of the pain and torment I endured, I realized that I am stronger and braver than most! If you do not have Faith and Love in your life, then how could one really enjoy happiness! What is Life without Love? My message to you is that, Life has a way of putting you down but in order to find a way to smile, you must learn to love yourself, unconditionally, and pray! No need to blame yourself for others actions but Forgive them and Forgive yourself because no one can actually move on without forgiveness! Smile even though the world may never smile back and DANCE tune to your own Beat ; I dance with my Eyes Closed because I could care how anyone feels- I am Free! Live, Laugh, Love, and Dance;) I may have Lupus but Lupus Does not Have Me!!
Had a Moment when the Pain of Fibromyalgia just overcame me! I felt stricken with Fear and Agony! I refuse to question God on my condition because I know that he would not give me something I could not handle! My body just felt as if it was on fire and crying only makes my pain worse! I thank god that I have someone to Hold me when I am weak, To wipe my eyes as the tears fall, To be an ear when I need to be listen too, and just to be beside me and give me the Strength when I need! Thank you!! I know this may be too personal for some but Unconditional Love is a Beautiful Thing! Be Thankful and Appreciative for those people that bring Love, Understanding, and Passion in your Life! God Is Good! I am Truly Blessed;) Butterfly Hugs and Kisses to you all;) I AM STILL STANDING;) I am a young woman who has made mistakes in the past but I have learned to accept that, move forward, and understand that Life is how you make it! Being diagnosed with Lupus so young (7 years old) and getting disciplined, doing chores, and learning to deal with pain has helped me appreciate how beautiful life can be if you are able to embrace your trials and tribulations. My father always told me that he will not have any sympathy for me because the world will not feel sorry for me, No Matter how sick I am! I did not grow up in an immaculate home but I had Unconditional Love, Shelter, Food, and a Family that Prayed together. Knowing God has always been our number one priority with my family! My father also said, “Wilda, You are Beautiful and Smart and if NO man can love you past your scars, then it wasn't love to began with”! With that being said, Do not allow your past to Jeopardize your Present because it will hold you back from having a Future! Everyone should know that deserve to be Love and Appreciated! You are Priceless and God does not make mistakes! Do not go on living for other people! Do you because you are the only one that can do it best!! Butterfly Hugs and Kisses to you All! Have a Blessed Day! Now you see why no one could ever take my Smile Away!! I will continue to Laugh, Love, Dance, and Pray! I Only Look up;)
As you Know, I have been having SLE ( Lupus) for twenty three years!! However, I have been able to have stability in my life, thanks to my Faith, My Family, My Friends, but most of all Myself!! Flare ups are common with Lupus and my Joint pain annoys me all day everyday but that has not been able to keep me down until I learned about Fibromyalgia! I noticed , around the middle of December 2010, and the beginning of January 2011, I would take a lot longer to get out of bed and I seemed to have constant fatigue, weakness, headaches, and my body just had this overwhelming pain that made want to stay in bed all day! I did not want to walk, attend a park, watch my children play outside, or even be outside! However, I was placed on Vicoprofuen , thanks to my NP, Theresa Margaglio, and my pain has been able to stay under control most of the time! I have no choice but to take my pain medicine or I will have a hard time completing the simplest chores or even walk! Knowing that I have been placed on Pain management ,at the age of 28 ,was a memorable moment because I knew I was able to overcome Lupus but I could not deal with the constant struggle that I had to battle by having Fibromyalgia! This pain is no joke and I would not wish this on my Enemy!! I am grateful for the Love and Positive people that surround me! My circle is full of Grace and Hope! I can only pray that people are educated about Fibromyalgia and Lupus so that they are better to understand the proper treatment that is required for that individual! We are all unique and not everyone can have the same treatment! Therefore, Eat Healthy, Excersise, Enjoy Life, Laugh, but Most of All Dance and be free because you are Not alone!! God Bless you!! Butterfly Hugs and Kisses to all of you!!
As you know, I was diagnosed with Lupus (SLE) in 1990 and I developed Scars on Both arms, my back, breast, a butterfly rash on the right side of my face and underneath my nose! In addition to that, I gained a lot of weight because of my medicine, and I dealt with minor hair loss, fatigue and depression! Because of my scars I was constantly being hit , pushed, teased and called Scar face, ugly, fat ass, or gross! I can remember being picked on almost every day of school and I still went to school because of the encouragement from my parents ! My father would always tell me that I was beautiful and I should never worry about the things people say! My mother told me that I was special and that I should show everyone my gifts ,embrace the negativity, and write it down into something positive! Being bullied made me angry, sick, stressed, and depressed. More so to the point that I felt as if suicide was my only option and I was only seven years old at the time! I felt so ugly, helpless, and a waste of air to the world. Why would god create something as ugly and disgusting as me? The bullying stopped around the time I was in the seventh grade and I began to embrace my dancing even more by participating as a cheerleader at Cecelia Junior High and I would sing for our talent shows are any other events for school! I still had my moments when I would cry because I hated being sick and I just felt so ugly because of my scar on my face! However, around my freshmen year, I learned to surround myself around positive people! I graduated in 2002 and I sung our National Anthem! That was one of the greatest moments in my life ! In my freshmen year of College, I found love, started a family, and learned the true meaning of Inner Beauty and unconditional love! I teach my children to understand that it is not right to bully or ridicule anyone for any reason! I thank god everyday for my trials and tribulations because I am so calm and understanding in everything that I do or that I may experienced! I thought life was so unfair for me in the past but I now understand that this has all been a test to strengthen me in the present and near future !! Parents, please speak to your children about bullying!! I thank god for the people that surround me today because I know now that Bullying Stops with me!! Butterfly Hugs and Kisses to all of you!!
Some people are Afraid of Change, no matter what situation they may be in! Lupus changed me at the age of 7 but I am happy with the person I am and the positive people that I surround myself with! I never allow negativity in my life because it's Stress not worth entertaining! Some people don't understand why I am so understanding or why I do not thing Teasing or bullying someone is funny! I have dealt with the pain of being bullied, hit, and pushed around for no reason but that I was the girl with the Ugly scare on her face! This world can be so cruel but you have to Smile and keep your head up no matter what! There are days that I am unable to walk or even hold my children because I am in so much pain but I always find a way to express my love my beautiful blessings no matter what! My smile is for them and this Crazy but Lovely World that we all live in! Thank you lord for my change in the past, present, and Future to come!! God is my Strength! I only love because I can not bare to have any piece of hatred in my heart!! Be Happy, Be Lovely, Be Healthy, but Most of all Be Blessed because you are! Butterfly Hugs and Kisses to all;) Remember, Change is a part of Life!! Strive with a Breeze!!
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AuthorMy name is Wilda Riggs and I am so proud to have published a book about my Life and basically, my Journey, both good and bad with Lupus! I enjoy being a mother to my beautiful blessings and I love Writing,Singing, and Dancing as much as I am able too!! Stay Smiling People! Life is a Beautiful Thing!!!! Archives
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