I remember how angry and frustrated I would feel when I would look at the Media and see how someone is able to take drugs for recreational reasons instead of Health Issues! I could never understand how someone, so healthy, is able to abuse their body every day. As I became older and wiser, I now feel a sadness for that person because I know he or she may be experiencing a hole that cannot be filled and it seems as if taking drugs is their ability of escaping (mentally) or filling that void in their life. I hate the fact that I have to worry about taking my medicine, when I should be able to just get up, make sure my children are ready for school, fixing breakfast, paying bills, or just finishing things that I need to finish! I have to have an alarm set up to wake up, before my children, and make sure that I am able to move because I have to do my motherly duties! How I wish I could get out bed with no pain and make it to the bathroom to wash my face or brush my teeth with no problem, but I can’t because the pain will prevent my ability to move , so I must take my medicine ahead of time! Basically, I know my medicine is to help me survive, rather than enjoy a HIGH!! I pray that those who abuse their bodies have the Love, Support, Faith, and Strength they need survive this deadly habit! My heart is with you and now I am able to understand that even though I may think I have it worse, there is always someone that may have it worse! Have a Blessed day everyone and enjoy the weekend! Remember that I may Have Lupus, but Lupus does not have me;)
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Had a Moment when the Pain of Fibromyalgia just overcame me! I felt stricken with Fear and Agony! I refuse to question God on my condition because I know that he would not give me something I could not handle! My body just felt as if it was on fire and crying only makes my pain worse! I thank god that I have someone to Hold me when I am weak, To wipe my eyes as the tears fall, To be an ear when I need to be listen too, and just to be beside me and give me the Strength when I need! Thank you!! I know this may be too personal for some but Unconditional Love is a Beautiful Thing! Be Thankful and Appreciative for those people that bring Love, Understanding, and Passion in your Life! God Is Good! I am Truly Blessed;) Butterfly Hugs and Kisses to you all;) I AM STILL STANDING;) I am a young woman who has made mistakes in the past but I have learned to accept that, move forward, and understand that Life is how you make it! Being diagnosed with Lupus so young (7 years old) and getting disciplined, doing chores, and learning to deal with pain has helped me appreciate how beautiful life can be if you are able to embrace your trials and tribulations. My father always told me that he will not have any sympathy for me because the world will not feel sorry for me, No Matter how sick I am! I did not grow up in an immaculate home but I had Unconditional Love, Shelter, Food, and a Family that Prayed together. Knowing God has always been our number one priority with my family! My father also said, “Wilda, You are Beautiful and Smart and if NO man can love you past your scars, then it wasn't love to began with”! With that being said, Do not allow your past to Jeopardize your Present because it will hold you back from having a Future! Everyone should know that deserve to be Love and Appreciated! You are Priceless and God does not make mistakes! Do not go on living for other people! Do you because you are the only one that can do it best!! Butterfly Hugs and Kisses to you All! Have a Blessed Day! Now you see why no one could ever take my Smile Away!! I will continue to Laugh, Love, Dance, and Pray! I Only Look up;)
As you know, I was diagnosed with Lupus (SLE) in 1990 and I developed Scars on Both arms, my back, breast, a butterfly rash on the right side of my face and underneath my nose! In addition to that, I gained a lot of weight because of my medicine, and I dealt with minor hair loss, fatigue and depression! Because of my scars I was constantly being hit , pushed, teased and called Scar face, ugly, fat ass, or gross! I can remember being picked on almost every day of school and I still went to school because of the encouragement from my parents ! My father would always tell me that I was beautiful and I should never worry about the things people say! My mother told me that I was special and that I should show everyone my gifts ,embrace the negativity, and write it down into something positive! Being bullied made me angry, sick, stressed, and depressed. More so to the point that I felt as if suicide was my only option and I was only seven years old at the time! I felt so ugly, helpless, and a waste of air to the world. Why would god create something as ugly and disgusting as me? The bullying stopped around the time I was in the seventh grade and I began to embrace my dancing even more by participating as a cheerleader at Cecelia Junior High and I would sing for our talent shows are any other events for school! I still had my moments when I would cry because I hated being sick and I just felt so ugly because of my scar on my face! However, around my freshmen year, I learned to surround myself around positive people! I graduated in 2002 and I sung our National Anthem! That was one of the greatest moments in my life ! In my freshmen year of College, I found love, started a family, and learned the true meaning of Inner Beauty and unconditional love! I teach my children to understand that it is not right to bully or ridicule anyone for any reason! I thank god everyday for my trials and tribulations because I am so calm and understanding in everything that I do or that I may experienced! I thought life was so unfair for me in the past but I now understand that this has all been a test to strengthen me in the present and near future !! Parents, please speak to your children about bullying!! I thank god for the people that surround me today because I know now that Bullying Stops with me!! Butterfly Hugs and Kisses to all of you!!
Some people are Afraid of Change, no matter what situation they may be in! Lupus changed me at the age of 7 but I am happy with the person I am and the positive people that I surround myself with! I never allow negativity in my life because it's Stress not worth entertaining! Some people don't understand why I am so understanding or why I do not thing Teasing or bullying someone is funny! I have dealt with the pain of being bullied, hit, and pushed around for no reason but that I was the girl with the Ugly scare on her face! This world can be so cruel but you have to Smile and keep your head up no matter what! There are days that I am unable to walk or even hold my children because I am in so much pain but I always find a way to express my love my beautiful blessings no matter what! My smile is for them and this Crazy but Lovely World that we all live in! Thank you lord for my change in the past, present, and Future to come!! God is my Strength! I only love because I can not bare to have any piece of hatred in my heart!! Be Happy, Be Lovely, Be Healthy, but Most of all Be Blessed because you are! Butterfly Hugs and Kisses to all;) Remember, Change is a part of Life!! Strive with a Breeze!!
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AuthorMy name is Wilda Riggs and I am so proud to have published a book about my Life and basically, my Journey, both good and bad with Lupus! I enjoy being a mother to my beautiful blessings and I love Writing,Singing, and Dancing as much as I am able too!! Stay Smiling People! Life is a Beautiful Thing!!!! Archives
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