I am very thankful for my Beautiful Blessings that Love me unconditional each and every day! However, just as I am grateful to know that we brought them into this world, I am also depressed, at times, to know that my children have seen me suffering, crying, screaming uncontrollably, using profanity, and wheeled off into an ambulance several times because of Lupus (SLE)! I remember seeing my children run on my Mother, or next of kin, to question why was mommy leaving or having to be held to prevent them from running towards me! This is so hurtful to talk about but just as the pain in my heart is overwhelming, I always found a way to give them a hug, tell my children how much I love them, and Smile as I left them, not knowing if it was the last time or not! It hurts so much to know that my situation is considered “NORMAL” for my children! No child should have to see their parent in so much pain, especially at the age of two and three! In addition to that, if I am dealing with any type of pain that I make any physical notion of and my children see an ambulance, they assume that the ambulance is for me! We could even be in the car, when they question me about it as well! I love my children so much and I would do everything in my power to protect them, but the one thing I cannot protect them from is my problems with Lupus!! I have learned that my children have become more aware about my illness and they will help me with household chores, getting their clothes, fixing mom some juice just to take my medicine, or reminding me that it is time to take my medicine! I love when my daughter grabs me a cold towel to place over my head and my son will scratch my back! These moments I once found depressing, I find uplifting because my children are my angels that protect me and care for me when I am ill!! Aariyah, Rick jr,and Raven ,you are my sunshine and Dad and I are grateful to have you three in our Life!! Mommy may have Lupus, but we will not allow Lupus to get the best of Mommy!
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AuthorMy name is Wilda Riggs and I am so proud to have published a book about my Life and basically, my Journey, both good and bad with Lupus! I enjoy being a mother to my beautiful blessings and I love Writing,Singing, and Dancing as much as I am able too!! Stay Smiling People! Life is a Beautiful Thing!!!! Archives
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